solid foundation

Here on the cusp of a new year
a message to the world
I'm sorry
I find myself at a place in life
where I have to build more walls
I have to be colder , stronger
I have to be more selfish
I have to care less
It's safer
I am alone
I have to cultivate strength
It is in my best interest to grow more independent
I may spend the rest of my life alone
and need to be confident in who I am
and my abilities to perceiver
I have to prepare to endure this cold darkness I find myself in
I have to arm myself to battle the demons
I have to do what's needed for me , now