Centered ... relaxed ... calm.
The feeling of all is balanced and in harmony ... no aches or pains, no negative emotions ... just a stable, relaxed peace.
It's like I've been on a raft at sea, getting tossed and turned for many days, and today the water is calm.
I am quite fortunate to have the time, support and space to recover. It's a funny world we live in ... where stress and pressure, pain and tragedy can force you to retreat from that machine we call life.
Yesterday I switched meds. My homeopathy doctor had me on ClearDay for the last 3 weeks ... but I wasn't seeing any substantial improvement 9not to my liking, anyway). So yesterday I switched to my family doctors meds - Cymbalta. I believe it will take at least a week or two before they begin to do their thing.
But I wish I felt like this everyday. I am not a ball of energy ... but really- it's ok. I feel like today is a good tay to relax and bathe in the tranquility of this peace and calm.
It's funny how pain and anguish really have a way of making you appreciate feeling good so much more. The "ahhhh" of no discomfort ...the "mmmm" of peace and balance. Oh to be able to return to this at will, anytime one chooses.
Depression forces one to be selfish in a way, I guess. So I give myself permission to stop ... rest ... heal and rebuild. After all, I can't effectively help anyone else if I am weak and hurting ... and I DO want to help others and be a positive force in the world.
It feels so good today ... to just be.
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