I wish I could be more optimistic, but these days - this pretty much sums up my state of mind:
It's hard to go on. It's hard to carry on and pretend like it's business as usual, yet at some point soon this is what I must do.
In order to return to a more "normal" life, I will try to rise to the expectations and responsibilities society requires and get back in the rat race.
It may be difficult to put on a happy face and be some sort of inspiration as an educator, but maybe it will force me to find positives focus on.
My goal is to returen to work next week (half time initially). Physically, I think I should be ok ... much of my stamina and energy has returned and MOST days, I should be up for it. Not every day may be perfect, but I will do my best.
Currently I have recovered to the point where MOST days I should be functional. There are still some times when I can feel weak, vulnerable, fragile and incapable ... but I am better (most of the time) than I was a month ago.
This week I will be seeing 2 of my 3 doctors and hope to get the green light to return to work next week.
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